ta sk@#%^ta simvainoun....

Ki erhetai i mera pou xafnika tipota den ehei simasia.Pou den iparhei logos na sikwtheis apo to krevati,alla prepei na sikwtheis.Pou koitas tis fwtografies ston toixo pou akoma den eheis katevasei kai vlepeis anthrwpous pou kapote simainan kati gia esena alla pou twra tous koitas kai den tous anagnwrizeis.Les kai ishiei afto pou fovountai oi indianoi,oti oi fwtografies klevoun tin psihi.Ki esy loipon koitas tous anthrwpous aftous pou kapote antallaxate psihes kai twra den eheis diathesi oute vlema na antallaxeis,oute na mpeis stin diadikasia na tous "apokathilwseis" vgazontas tis fwtografies tous apo ton toiho sou.Apo ton diko sou proswpiko toiho pou antikrizeis kathe mera,pou einai htismenos kai periorizei ton hwro sou kai tin idioktisia sou.Isws kai na thewreis perriti afti tin tin apokathilwsi giati tous eheis apokathilwsei mesa sou ipswnontas ton diko sou proswpiko toixo anamesa se esena kai aftous,pou einai "ftiagmenos" apo pliges,lathi,dakria.Ki etsi den se noiazei an tous koitas hwris na tous vlepeis giati aftes einai fwtografies,hwris psihi,hwris simasia,einai morfes pou apla ipirhan.
Ki etsi xekina mia akoma mera pou apla simvainei na iparhei.Ki esy simvainei na xipnas,na sikwnesai apo to krevvati,na koitas ton toiho,na pigaineis sto mpanio kai na "enapotheseis"tis toxines kai ta igra pou o organismos sou ekrine oti prepei na apovlithoun oso esy koimosoun,na pleneis to proswpo sou gia na xipniseis,les kai arkei ligo i poli krio nero gia na se kanei na xipniseis ousiastika,kai na plineis ta dontia sou.Kai isws afto einai to mono ousiastiko pou kaneis gia esena apo tin wra pou xipnas.Giati mporei asineidita na apovaleis toxines kai igra,alla sineidita pleneis ta dontia sou kai ta katharizeis apo olo tin holi pou ta perievale to vradi pou koimosoun kai ston kosmo twn oneirwn sou vrethikes na antimetwpizeis anthrwpous kai katastaseis pou se ponesan.
Ki etsi,pas na xanafoulareis ton eafto sou apo toxika kai holika igra kai kapnous.Pas stin kouzina na pieis ton prwto kafe tis imeras me to prwto tsigaro.Ki opws kratas to tsigaro kai anakateveis variestimena ton kafe me to kalamaki akous to radiofwno na paizei " 'cause everybody hurts sometimes...sometimes everything is wrong...".Alla kalo tha einai na min dwseis simasia kai na skefteis oti apla simvainei to radiofwno na paizei mousiki kai apla sinevei na akouseis to siggekrimeno tragoudi.Den tha poneseis,den tha stenaxwritheis,den tha thimitheis aftous pou se pligwsan giati sigoura ki esy eheis pligwsei ki eheis stenahwrisei kapoion,kapou,kapote.Etsi einai afta,apla simvainoun.
Tha ntitheis,tha etoimasteis na pas stin douleia sou.Eite sou aresei i douleia sou eite ohi,tha pas.Apla simvainei.Tha sou poun pente kalimeres,tha peis dyo,giati variesai na apantas se olous,tha vgaleis to ohtawro sou kai tha sholaseis.Tha mpeis sto amaxi sou,sto treno,sto lewforeio,sto taxi,sto metro,tha vrizeis tin tihi sou gia tin kinisi,tha prospatheis na vreis thesi na katseis,tha diaolostelneis ton diplano sou pou vrwmaei,i tha prospatheis na kripseis tin efimerida sou apo ton apenanti pou katholou diakritika prospathei na diavasei.Apla simvainoun afta.
Tha giriseis spiti sou,tha vreis 432 logariasmous na se perimenoun,tha katarasteis oles tis trapezes tis elladas kai oles tis deko tha petaxeis olous aftous tous fakelous variestimena panw sto grafeio kai tha anoixeis tin tileorasi gia na eheis parea tin wra pou trws.Ki oso tha trws tha vlepeis stin othoni polemous,poreies,diafimiseis,realitoproswpa,metaglwtismena vrazilianika kai hiliopaigmens epanalipseis,ton epikouro,ton akalipto,ton thodwri,tin dimitra.Apla ki afto simvainei...
Ki otan tha pas na xaplwseis gia ligo tha skefteis oti ola afta apla simvainoun,oti opws leei kai mia xeni ekfrasi "shit happens".Kai den mporeis para na min simfwniseis.Kai kapou ekei sineiditopoieis oti isws na min mporeis na allaxeis afta pou simvainoun alla oti mporeis na allaxeis afta pou afineis esy na simvainoum.Kai tote apofasizeis na katevaseis apo ton toiho oles aftes tis psihes pou isws sou ferthikan apsiha,na kratiseis tis pliges,ta lathi kai ta klamata kai na sinehiseis.Na dehteis ta dika sou lathi,ta dika sou paraptwmata kai na anakalipseis oti eheis tin dinami na pareis dinami apo osa sk#$@%^*ta simvainoun.Kai hamogelas giati pisteveis oti mporeis na ta katefereis kai na prospathiseis na katalaveis pws eisai antrwpos pou pligwnetai kai pligwnei,pou hanei kai hanetai,pou klaiei alla kai pou gelaei,pou peftei alla mporei na sikwthei.Pou ton hwrizoun alla kai pou hwrizei.Pou adikeitai alla kai pou adikei.Pou dinei alla kai pairnei.Pou tou hrwstane kiriolektika kai metaforika,alla kai pou ki ekeinos hrwstaei,kiriolektika kai metaforika.Pou prepei na dehtei oti ta sk$@#%ta simvainoun alla pou prepei na dehtei oti ehei dio epiloges,i na ta faei,i na ta mazepsei...